I Sit With What I Cannot 'Fix'

The impulse to fix arises from discomfort, not wisdom. When something hurts inside us or outside us, the mind rushes toward repair, explanation, improvement. It assumes that suffering is an error, a deviation from how things should be.

But what if this impulse itself is the disturbance? What if the need to fix is simply the mind’s refusal to remain with what it cannot control?

What happens when nothing is repaired, nothing is resolved, and no meaning is assigned?

For a long time, attention moved outward. Toward brokenness. Toward pain that appeared to require action. Toward lives that seemed to need intervention. The movement felt noble, necessary, even urgent. Yet beneath it ran a quieter current an exhaustion that no success touched, a restlessness that no helping dissolved. The more that was done, the less settled everything felt. As if effort itself was keeping something essential at a distance.

Gradually, without decision, the urge to understand weakened. Causes lost their urgency. Explanations felt thin. Even insight began to feel like noise.

What remained was a simple, unfamiliar capacity: the ability to stay. To sit where nothing improves. To remain present where no method applies. To not turn away when no solution appears.

In that staying, something became clear, not as a conclusion, but as a recognition. Nothing here is asking to be fixed. The world is not broken in the way the mind insists it is. Pain moves, lives move, forms rise and dissolve. What fractures experience is not suffering itself, but resistance to it. The refusal to be still inside uncertainty. The insistence that something must be done for life to be acceptable.

Presence does not heal by correcting. It heals by not leaving.

There are moments when ache arrives without a story. No memory. No reason. Just a weight, a tightening, a quiet pressure behind the ribs. Earlier, this would have been met with effort with naming, processing, transforming. Now it is met differently. It is allowed to be unproductive. Unresolved. Unanswered. And strangely, in that allowance, it loses its threat.

Not because it disappears, but because it is no longer alone.

there is something here,

that does not ask to be saved,

only to be seen,

without flinching,

Stillness reveals an unexpected truth, silence carries more intelligence than response. Words rush ahead of understanding. Advice interrupts something delicate. Even compassion can become invasive when it tries to improve what has not asked to change.

But quiet attention undivided, patient, unafraid creates space where experience can unfold without defense.

Nothing dramatic happens here. No release. No breakthrough. Just a subtle settling. Like dust falling when movement stops.

The desire to change the world fades in this space, not from indifference, but from clarity. Witnessing replaces fixing. Listening replaces effort. What remains is a gentle fidelity to what is present this breath, this sensation, this moment without demand that it become something else.

There is no solution being carried forward. No message to deliver. No resolution to offer. Only the willingness to remain where certainty ends. To walk without footwear into the terrain of not-knowing. To trust that presence itself is sufficient, even when it offers nothing measurable in return.

This sitting does not claim holiness. It does not call itself love. It simply does not abandon experience when it becomes uncomfortable. And perhaps that is enough. Absolutely enough!

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